Laura Gets Shit Done

Today's a rest day for me - I'm tired, I'm ... fighting the metal game.  When I ran yesterday, I took a different route hoping that by taking a longer route I would run more distance without doing more laps.  One of my worst enemies with running is boredom and then my brain starts telling me that I can't do it.  I haven't figured out how to make the negative self talk stop.  Additionally, I am not running to lose weight this time.  At least that's the idea.  But I'm fighting 50 years of trying to actively lose weight.  I'm determined to love myself at every size.  But I struggle.  And yesterday, despite my best efforts, I stepped on the scale.  Which isn't the hard part.  But after 5 days of running, my brain convinced me I would have seen significant weight loss.  Which makes NO SENSE AT ALL.  Which is why I'm trying to focus on getting stronger and healthy and not on weight loss.  Because those numbers can really sabotage me getting healthy

My baby is now 7, my oldest is 25 and the middle child is 23.  They're all wonderful.  My husband and biggest cheerleader and I have been married for 10 years this summer and together for over 16.  I figured I would put a picture to the family - share how wonderful they all are!! From left to right:  Andy, Me, Louie with Louis on his shoulders, and Taylor. They are my reason for being.

Nearly 5 years later... I'm pretty sure nobody cares or reads this but...this was started for me and I'll continue for me.  It's a bunch of years later - I lost 40 pounds and then gained 70.  I'm currently sitting at 249.  And not just 249 pounds but WOEFULLY out of shape.  I joined a gym last December.  Went twice.  Need to cancel my membership, I'm paying a stupid tax every month. Then, last weekend, I was at a BBQ when a friend of mine casually said 'you should come run the Portland half marathon with us!' And apparently I was temporarily possessed by...something... and I said yes. So my running is starting up again.  (I literally just took a deep breath and let it out slowly). I have been running all week now, that sounds so much better than 3 days.  I can't even run a mile.  I can't even RUN for 1/3 of a mile.  But I started from zero before.  And I'm doing it again.  And I'm not planning on WINNING the half marathon - just not dyin