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rash decision...but it needs to be done...

Just a quick check in - this morning's breakfast got me thinking...
Typically I've been eating toast every morning.  And I've been using cinnamon sugar sprinkled on top because, well, because frankly I'm out of control.  With my sugar consumption.  This morning was the final straw.  For reasons I don't completely understand. But I'm going with it...

Pregnancy or not - I'm eating too much sugar. It's become my go-to food.  And it's out of control. 
So this morning, I quit.  Cold Turkey.  Without any pre-meditation.  Peanut butter toast from this point forward.  And no snickers with lunch.  And no cadbury eggs at the grocery store.  And no ice cream, sprinkle donuts, random candy bars to curb hunger. 

It's going to mean more planning.  I still have to eat every hour or so to keep the m/s from getting out of control.  But it's NOT sugar that I need.  It's sugar that I want...but not need. 
So today is Day 1.  Again.  I know.  But I know it's what I need to do.  Not want.  For sure.  But need. 
Want vs. need.  A great post for another day...

Until then, nearly 23 weeks pregnant and already grumpy, I'm giving up sugar cold turkey. 
(my brain is already coming up with "exceptions" - there's a cupcake party in the works, there are baby showers I will be the guest of honor at - that means cake! - and there's the occassional Cadbury egg I don't WANT to resist...)

So here's to Day 1.  Again. 

TTFN,
LauraLynne

Comments

Dr. Fat To Fit said…
So good to hear from you. You won't be sorry. If you let that sugar demon get a hold on you now, it will be that much harder to break later. Over half way done! Hang in there! :)
Anonymous said…
Wow. Cutting out sugar cold turkey?!?! And being preg... you are one crazy mama!! ;) But you seem to really want this. Good for you!!
Ms. M said…
Cadbury eggs are evil. Glad you're kicking the sugar to the curb. You & baby will be all the better for it. :)
Ms. M said…
Cadbury eggs are evil. Glad you're kicking the sugar to the curb. You & baby will be all the better for it. :)
Ms. M said…
Cadbury eggs are evil. Glad you're kicking the sugar to the curb. You & baby will be all the better for it. :)
Ms. M said…
Cadbury eggs are evil. Glad you're kicking the sugar to the curb. You & baby will be all the better for it. :)
Good for you! Sugar is a tough one to give up. Especially with cadbury eggs everywhere.

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