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coming out of my slump - and a new puppy!

I've been in a slump - blog silence on my end usually means just that.  I've been struggling to keep up my healthy eating and I haven't been working out.  My weight has stayed the same but that's NOT my goal in this journey.  I'm hanging out at 191 still - so close to 180's.  But I'm really mentally struggling.  It's been cold.  I've been exhausted.  I haven't felt 100% well.  I've got a million other excuses.  I've spent 42 years making excuses.  I'm a freaking Excuse Expert. 
I'm signed up for a 5k on 12/12 - so I'd better get my butt in gear.  I'm contemplating a 1/2 marathon in April - I'd better get my butt in gear.  I've lost 49 pounds and have 41 more to go - I'd better get my butt in gear.

If only it were as easy to DO as it were to say.  I've cheated on my abstinence foods - sugar AND candy.  Still no chips - as if there's solace in that.  But today's a new day and Day 1 again. 

And tonight I'll do my bootcamp at home - 30 minutes of sweat inducing exercise.  Even if the new puppy lucks my toes the whole time!
8 week old Sadie

August we lost our oldest boxer Gunner, his brother Houdini has missed him (we have too...).  Sadie joined our family yesterday - 8 weeks old, 5-ish pounds - she's a handful but oh so very very sweet!!  Cuddly and people oriented.  House training has begun - crate training and commands will follow that.  Puppy school maybe for this one!  I need to train her to run with me too - boxers need a lot of exercise and while we walk Houdini - he's too random to run with.  He swerves!! 

So there you have it - check in from Guilty-land.  But I'm still here, still accountable, and still willing and able to do this!!


TTFN,
LauraLynne

Comments

Amanda Kiska said…
Keep blogging! It helps.

Love the puppy!
Congratulations on the new edition to the family!

Don't beat yourself up about the little slump. You have the power and determination to get right back at it. Look how far you've come!
Glad you are here, hang in there! Are you doing the Jingle Bell Dash on 12/12? If so and you'd like to meet up, give me a shout!
LauraLynne said…
Totally doing the timed Jingle Bell run! let's coordinate - I'd love to meet up!
jessey said…
What a cute pup!

Keep blogging through the slumps - we're all here for you and we've all been there.
Unknown said…
I love puppies! Boxers are adorable, congrats.

Glad you've come back from your silence. Your 5K is a great goal. And keep up the blog, it's so helpful.
LauraLynne, AWWW! I love boxers! We had one when our boys were small. Loved him! I am so proud of you! YES! 42 years of excuses here too! I am back to being accountable as well! WE CAN DO THIS!
Have a pretty day!
Kristin
Jon said…
Congrats on the weight loss! You are halfway there. You can totally keep it up!

Cute puppy!!!
PJ Geek said…
Been struggling myself. Going to a new OA meeting this week...I'm commmitted to that. Hang in there and soak up that puppy love.
Connie B said…
Awww, what a cute little fella!!!

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