Laura Gets Shit Done

Touchy subject, I know - with as many opinions as there are people with opinions.  For me, I've tried moderation - and it works.  Short term.  6 months or so I can eat in moderation.  I've done it before - many many time.  I bet most of us have.  So I'm trying something new.  I'm going to start eliminating the foods that I have the hardest time moderating.  I started with candy and it's been 3 weeks.  3 weeks since I've had ANY candy.  It's hard.  There are cues everywhere.  Stopping for gas, taking a walk, strong emotions - all bring up the neon "buy candy" sign in my head.  Still.  But it's only been 3 weeks.  And it IS getting better.  Slowly, oh so very very slowly.  But I'm determined.  I've maintained my weight loss - but my binging is still not completely under control.  So while candy is off the menu, chips, and other sweets (cookies and ice cream) are the main culprits.  So I will eliminate them as well.  But not all at o

Well, I made it to the pool last night!  Finally - I feel like progress!  Swam 1,000m in 27 minutes so now I'm MORE certain I can make next week's race in under the time cut off.  Did I mention I'm doing an Aquathon next week?  It intrigued me so I signed up - 1,000m swim followed by a 8k run.  After I signed up, I started looking at the details.  There's a time cut off.  And my BEST times are pretty much their time cut offs.  And I've been slacking on the running lately so I'm a little nervous.  I really don't want a ride home in the sweep car.  Last night we had a car club meeting - which is always held at a buffet.  *le sigh*  I did pretty good - a nice fresh salad to start, a rare piece of steak and a side of broccoli, then the frosting off a mini cupcake.  And I stopped there.  No grazing.  No seconds.  No dessert on my way out the door.  And no candy off the sundae bar.  Definately a win for me.  Lately I've been paying more attention to ho

Saturday was 2 weeks no candy.  I've had cookies and chips and some other not-so-great food - but no candy.  I've had it thrown at me (parade), offered to me, brought from Hawaii, gone to the movies, been at a ball game: all without candy.  I'm starting to believe I CAN do this.  The other junk food has been in moderation.  Surprisingly, I've actually thrown a lot of stuff out - or given it to hubby or the kids.  I'm trying to be aware of what actually TASTES good.  Spend a week doing that...it's enlightening.  There are foods I eat that I don't actually like the taste of.  I've been using moderation as well.  I haven't been writing everything down, more just trying to pay attention.  Be aware.  It's been interesting.  My next elimination item will be chips - target date Sept 1.  This is a big one.  I love chips.  The taste, the smell...well, you know.  I just love them.  But they're a trigger for me.  And while I love EATNIG them, the af

Because I can't post a comment from work - but you NEED to see this!!  Everyone else will love it too - but if you go read Drazil today you'll understand why she especially needs it!  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pMT_dCRAUpE Happy Monday everyone! TTFN, the birthday girl! ;)

So Friday morning was chaos from the word go.  Thursday night I stayed up let getting  lasagna ready (ok ok - buying a frozen one because I FORGOT!) for the next day's potluck at work.  I put it in the oven and set the over for delay cook.  The oven came on as planned at 5am and went off as planned at 6am when I usually get up.  I think you see where this is going.  I finally woke up at 7am to a crispy non-edible brick.  So I got dressed in a rush, headed (late) out the door and stopped at the store for lasagna I could just heat up at work before the potluck.  I LOVE to cook for other people so I was really disappointed for forgetting the night before, frustrated at waking up late, and angry about pretty much everything at that point.  I headed into the grocery store.  I have a little talk with myself on the way in - no, really - this is something I have to do these days.  "Self" I say, "you will not buy candy.  You just won't.  You promised.  So no candy, ok? 

This tiny phrase just popped into my head and it was followed by an endless stream of - well - I couldn't even figure all of it out.  But one part stuck out.  And I'm asking all of you the same question... What if....tomorrow you woke up at your goal weight?  What's the first thing you would do?  *I don't have my own answer to it yet - the idea of it shocks my brain into utter silence* But I'm guessing that it might be one of my hurdles I'm facing.  What WILL I do when I reach my goal??  I can't even picture it - and if you can't picture your goal, how do you achieve it?  I can picture myself running races, I can picture myself choosing healthy foods and/or healthy portions.  But there's a mental block that is making it hard to picture myself at goal.  This is something I will work on this week.  maybe google some images of body types and how I picture myself at 150.  Maybe some pictures of athletes competing and/or winning.  I'm not sure h

OK - so I'm starting over - clean slate, new day, new week, etc.  And today's weigh in puts me up more than I care to admit. But that's what this blog's about.  Putting it all out there.  So, without further ado:  206.8 Not 240.  Not even 230, 220, or 210.  So it could have been worse.  It's only been a month but I really am lucky to not have gained more.  I felt a lot more out of control.  So 206.8 it is.  And a goal of reaching 199 again before the end of August.  I need to come up with a few more goals for August.  But not right now.  Right now I have to get back to work...I have to leave on time today, I have a run to get in tonight! TTFN, LauraLynne

Ok - so I've contemplated, casual polled, reconsidered and finally came to this decision:  I am cutting candy out of my diet.  Completely.  Candy for now.  Refined sugar down the road.  But candy is easy to define.  So yesterday was day 1.  And we had a motorcycle ride planned - a nice all day curvy ride with hubby and I and anyone from our church group who wanted to show up.  One guy showed and then backed out due to weather (it was threatening to rain).  So hubby and I headed north...destination sleepy tourist town for lunch.  It was cloudy and threat of rain but nothing yet - and as we got into one small town on our way, we were blocked ... by a parade!!  Apparently the fair was in town and along with the fair came a parade.  It was the very beginning of the parade so we parked out bikes (the road was blocked anyway) and sood on the curb to watch.  Here's where the universe's sense of humor came into play.  I told the hubby that morning about my decision.  He support

Ok - now that the medical/emotional stuff is "over" and out there...I'm working on finding my focus again. Healthy eating, smart choices, and exercise.  #1 & #2 are coming along nicely (save for the animal crackers I'm about to eat) but I've been grocery shopping and I've got food to cook at home instead of random spontaneous choices that usually end up bad for me.  Exercise it the weak point right now.  It's gorgeous out - I'm physically able to work out - I've got more time than usual due to kids' schedule being very open right now.  And yet I find myself sitting on teh computer or watching a movie (or both).  I've got a race coming up - but Sept. 18 seems so far off and I can "start tomorrow".  I know what worked before - making a calander, putting it on the fridge, and sticking to it like a job.  So why haven't I done that?!  Hmmm...I don't know. I also need to make a calander for hubby - he wants to start work

Let me start by saying I’m fine – healthy both physically and emotionally - drained in both senses, but fine. Let me also say that I’m not dramatic by nature – I’m not writing this blog for attention or pity or…I don’t even know. I write in hopes of reaching out to other people going through similar things. I write to quiet the voices that bounce around in my head. I write to be able and record my life and look back at where I’ve been. And it’s my hope to help other people by my own successes and failures. Today’s blog isn’t weight loss related. But it is about me. This, ultimately, is what this blog is about. Nearly a month ago, I got some great news. We were expecting. We hadn’t been trying per se, but we hadn’t been preventing either. We shouldn’t have been surprised; we’re such a great team at everything else in life that we should have been more prepared. But it did take us both by surprise. I can’t speak for my husband’s emotions – so I won’t. I can say that I was excited. I