Laura Gets Shit Done

Weekends are such a challenge for me - too much time, not enough planning, I struggle to stick to my plan for the days I'm home.  So Sunday nights, when I've managed to not eat my weight in savory foods and I've successfully managed to impulsively put together 6 different meals - some of them even at restaurants - and stick to my numbers.  It's such a great feeling.  I can do this.  That's not to say it's easy.  I have to live with the idea that it may NEVER be easy.  But I have to find satisfaction in making it through a day - or a weekend - at a time.  Chalk this one up to another weekend survived! Tomorrow:  March goals!  Stay tuned! TTFN LauraLynne

If one more person tells me I'm not eating enough, I'm going to kick them right in the Gulliver!   I've been hesitant to post meal plans (stay tuned though - I'm feeling rebellious now!!) because I'm sick to DEATH of people analyzing what I'm eating.  how about you pay attention to your body and it's needs and I'll pay attention to mine.  I'm eating around 1200 calories a day.  And losing around 2 pounds a week.  Healthy loss.  Slow and steady.  Nothing drastic.  So why is it that people feel the need to tell me that 1200 calories is not enough.  Obviously it is.  I'm eating healthy food (mostly) and I'm changing my eating habits.  That's the POINT of all of this.  The side benefit is weight loss.  I have what I like to refer to as a stubborn metabolism.  I have a hard time losing weight (hello Captain OBVIOUS!).  Right now it's compounded by the fact that I'm not a spring chicken.  Or as my doctor so deli...

So - assuming we're all adults here - or nearly adults - or at least adult-like, looking back on your life as it led up to being overweight, struggling with food, arriving where we are, what advice would you have given yourself when you first started this struggle?  If you could write a letter to yourself or jump back in time with advice, what would you say?  Can you look back and pinpoint that pivotal time?  Would you go back and ask your parents to do something differently?  Act differently, provide different support?  Would you have appreciated and been able to listen to it from the outside? My purpose is this - my daughter is 16.  And my biggest fear is that she's following me down this path.  The one that leads to 300+ pounds, low self-esteem, poor life choices.  And I'm not sure how to address it.  I've asked myself how I would have changed my OWN path had I known where it leads.  And I don't have the answer.  I know that my...

I'm going to start this one by saying that I saw a low scale of 215.9 this week!!  Last night's super salty and probably WAY more calories than I should have Udon soup is who i'm blaming this morning's number on.  2180.0 I can however appreciate that this is a GOOD number.  It's down from last Friday - it's down from the 5 Friday's before that, and it's down from the 365 Friday's before THAT!  I'm determined to look forward, not back.  218.0 is good.  I deserve self-praise.  And a tiny bit of pride.  NonScale Victories:  More jeans are baggy.  I'm wearing a t-shirt I havne't worn for awhile - one that I did wear at 240 until I saw  picture of myself wearing it...then it went to the back of the closet.  And tonight I'm going to talk to my husband about signing up for the Malibu Marathon (well, half) and just getting off my ass (and away from the computer in the morning) and starting to run.  Off to work with me - TGIF...

A fight, that's what was going on in my brain last night. I had to hit the grocery store on my way home...at 11pm...And I was hungry. I needed Crystal Lite for at work (ya ya - artificial sweeteners - for crying out loud, I'm not giving EVERYTHING up!). And my daughter needed juice for a church group today (hence the 11pm trip). And mostly, I did ok. Hung out in the produce section for a little while, looking for sale items, got my CL, the juice girlchild needed, and a couple boxes of 100 calorie snack packs. I was feeling pretty good about things as I headed for the register. *SCREECH* I saw them. I braced myself, did a little mental check in, so far so good. I'm 2 people back in line (and wow - the people in front of me had a bit much to drink - they smelled heavily of alcohol) and my check in tells me I'm doing ok. I fidget a little as the first couple pays for their munchies and try to distract myself by seeing how long I could hold my breath (ya - the dude in f...

I'm a numbers geek - I love math (don't make *that* face!). Today I stepped on the scale (as usual...) and it said 216.2 back at me (wow - I'm still totally psyched!). so I started doing the math: 23.8 pounds in 53 days = .45 pounds a day 23.8 pounds gone = 83,300 calories cut 83,300 calories cut in 53 days = 1572 calories a day Only 66.2 pounds to go, 147 days at the current rate. I can DO this for 147 days. Monday, July 19, 2010. I COULD be my goal weight by my 42nd birthday. Oh, the possibilities!! Meanwhile, today I'm committed to no chocolate. And so far so good. 7 days no chocolate treats. *Success* I'm still flying high from the LCD screen staring back at me this morning. And in the back of my mind, I'm telling myself to enjoy it because tomorrow that number will be right back where I started. Not likely, but still a lurking fear. I need to start weaning myself from the scale. But I'm not sure how. I'll ponder! I love hearing from those of...

I still expect the scale to show "big numbers, no whammies" but have started to come around to the idea that it's showing smaller numbers slowly and I have to be patient. I'm down 20 pounds. And I need to give myself credit for that. *patting self on back*. And while my decision making isn't perfect - good golly - I'm making WAY better choices than in the past. My brain keeps visiting the "don't give a rip anymore" place and I keep backing it up from there and going back to the other 90% that DOES give a rip. About my health, about my body, about being an example for my 16 year old daughter. Who has developed new stretch marks on her arms. I could cry for her. So this week - I gave up chocolate! And it's everywhere I look!! At my office, at the appointments I've been to lately, and the grocery store?! Fiendish they are at the grocery store. I swear they hate healthy people. They hide the healthy food and mark down the crap. Being frugal, ...