warning - TMI ahead...
I've had an IUD in for over 6 years - I just had it removed 2 weeks ago. I have not had a period (or PMS) in over 6 years. I forgot what it's like. Today I'm just sad. For no reason. I want to curl up on the couch with a blanket and the remote. I wanted to leave work early just for a hug from my husband. I'm not in any physical pain - but I feel like someone smacked my emotions with a 2x4. They're all over the place and today the wheel landed on 'sad'. I've been reading through blogs - trying to find inspiration and leave positive comments in hopes of lifting my own spirit as well. What I saw was a lot of women struggling lately. Or maybe that's just what I focused on.
I'm in turmoil over some personal decisions but generally life is really good right now. Even my teenagers are doing well.
With that in mind - today was day 2 of marathon training. And I had to force myself out the door. But I did it. nd tonight I did not get attacked by a dog - oh ya, I forgot to mention that last night. Apparently my legs look like delicious milk bones. Costco sized milkbones. And a tiny dog jumped on them from behind. Scared the bejesus out of me!! Tonight I only got barked at - I can live with that!
But I powered through. And ate a healthy dinner. And am now about to go lay on the love sac and watch the rest of Biggest Loser. Or fall asleep. I just don't care.
Tomorrow night is my OA meeting. And I still haven't done my assignment. Still stuck on step 4. But I'm bringing the book to work with me tomorrow. And I will get some writing done.
Until then, I'm going to just wallow in sadness, watch a sad movie, get some crying out of my system, and snuggle with my husband (who's birthday happens to be today!!).
The good news in all of this is that I haven't had any slips in food. I'm still going strong. Still writing it all down - eating well - managing.
And PMS does end. But my journey will not.
Until tomorrow!!
TTFN,
LauraLynne
I've had an IUD in for over 6 years - I just had it removed 2 weeks ago. I have not had a period (or PMS) in over 6 years. I forgot what it's like. Today I'm just sad. For no reason. I want to curl up on the couch with a blanket and the remote. I wanted to leave work early just for a hug from my husband. I'm not in any physical pain - but I feel like someone smacked my emotions with a 2x4. They're all over the place and today the wheel landed on 'sad'. I've been reading through blogs - trying to find inspiration and leave positive comments in hopes of lifting my own spirit as well. What I saw was a lot of women struggling lately. Or maybe that's just what I focused on.
I'm in turmoil over some personal decisions but generally life is really good right now. Even my teenagers are doing well.
With that in mind - today was day 2 of marathon training. And I had to force myself out the door. But I did it. nd tonight I did not get attacked by a dog - oh ya, I forgot to mention that last night. Apparently my legs look like delicious milk bones. Costco sized milkbones. And a tiny dog jumped on them from behind. Scared the bejesus out of me!! Tonight I only got barked at - I can live with that!
But I powered through. And ate a healthy dinner. And am now about to go lay on the love sac and watch the rest of Biggest Loser. Or fall asleep. I just don't care.
Tomorrow night is my OA meeting. And I still haven't done my assignment. Still stuck on step 4. But I'm bringing the book to work with me tomorrow. And I will get some writing done.
Until then, I'm going to just wallow in sadness, watch a sad movie, get some crying out of my system, and snuggle with my husband (who's birthday happens to be today!!).
The good news in all of this is that I haven't had any slips in food. I'm still going strong. Still writing it all down - eating well - managing.
And PMS does end. But my journey will not.
Until tomorrow!!
TTFN,
LauraLynne
Comments
Glad a dog didn't get you last night. What a great goal-you look like you are doing really great working towards it.
today is a better day - much better, thank you!