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update!

well - I'm still not able to stay off the scale - but it's keeping me sane right now.  I've been in a slump in the running department - I took 4 days off.  I've got my running stuff with me today and plan to run tonight.  Part of my slump has been I've been exhausted - it's a chicken/egg thing.  I haven't been able to sleep well, because I'm not exercising or because I was?  I'm not sure.  Either way...I'm baaaack!

From a food point of view, I've been doing surprisingly well. I haven been only mentally tracking and I haven't stayed away from sugar but I have been under control.  Not even 'relatively' under control - but truly having a good food week.   This Saturday I'm trying to clear up my schedule for the OA meeting - it's never simple, my calander looks like I'm scheduling a full work team of 10 but it's only me. 

There's just SO much to do!  work is slow right so at least there's not a lot of added stress about adding more time in my day for overtime and late schedule - but hopefully that's coming and not the reverse.  There's rumors of reduced hours and part of me is hoping that's the case, more time to get stuff outside of work done, less time sitting idle at work. 

Meanwhile - I haven't been reaching deep inside myself, I've just been rambling along.  That needs to change!!

I've got FIFTY followers now and a obligation to myself to make the changes I know I need to make!  I thank you ALL for being my cyber support - it really does make a difference, more than you know!!

TTFN,
LauraLynne

Comments

ThunderThighs said…
no thank YOU for being an inspiration... i tried my first oa meeting monday night! you introduced me to it and didn't even realize it! i finally have a light at the end of this awful long dark tunnel! so in all appreciation, here's to you being great!! :)
May 12, 2010 at 10:13 AM
JourneyBeyondSurvival said…
Keep trying, keep going. You're doing better than you think you are. I'm glad you're getting so much help!
May 12, 2010 at 10:34 AM
Juli said…
I too, say thank you for the inspiration. This is a great way to stay accountable and nice to share the journey with so many amazing people. :)
May 12, 2010 at 10:42 AM
♥ Drazil ♥ said…
Congrats on 50 - here's to the next 50 you inspire every day!
May 12, 2010 at 2:57 PM
Sandy said…
I love reading your posts so keep it up. I wanted to suggest you get the book God, Women, Food by Geneen Roth. I was sceptical but it really has some good points about eating. And there really isn't anything religious about it. I saw it similar to some of the books I had when I went to OA. I didn't find OA helpful but then there weren't many people there and I never got a sponsor. It just wasn't my time.
May 12, 2010 at 3:26 PM
Summer said…
You can do it!!!! I really enjoy reading your blog. Keep it up. =)
May 13, 2010 at 12:01 AM
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