Skip to main content

pushing through the tough times...

My eating isn't great - but I've still got the wagon under me...I'm still running, I have a race in under 2 weeks that I have to finish - for my own sake.  The weather here is finally turning, great weekend of sunshine, long weekend of baseball and other commitments.  And - if mother nature is listening, I'm NOT whining - too much sun.  It knocked me out!  I'm a little sunburnt, but not bad.  And Sunday I managed an 8.5 mile run!  It was heavenly!  I feel so acomplished when I run.  And it relates to my eating...

Somehow, in running, I manage to push through the hard parts.  The first mile or 2 is excruciating for me.  I want to quit with every step. Turn around, go home.  But at some point, I push through that and then it's just mechanics - one foot after the other, let the mind wander, let the body work.  Today I'm going to try that with my eating.  When I want to binge, I'll set the clock and push through WITHOUT binging for 15 minutes.  Then I'll try for another 15. 

I should add here - I'm not binging a lot...just a few (3) mini hershey bars - but 3 times a day or more and that adds up.  There's a candy dish and I'm hoping it's empty soon (the 'candy lady' was one of the ones cut in the layoffs, I'll miss her but not her free candy!).  There will always be other temptations, I'm not foolish enough to think that the ONLY source of food is that candy basket...but I've been able to avoid more complicated binging (like leaving the office, going to the store, choosing the food, coming back, eating the food).  Somehow, complicating it holds me off. 

So we'll see.  I also need to go grocery shopping - my fridge is bare!!  Which means we're improvising which isn't great for me.  Tonight is a relatively low key night, should be able to fit a trip to the grocery store in (with hubby's truck - my VW is petering out and hubby will work on it soon!).  I'm on the motorcycle for commuting now - which works out fine while the sun's out!

Ok - time to go feed the stray dog living in our garage (we found a pit bull in our neighborhood last night - he's sweet, friendly, trained, and obviously someone is missing this dog - we'll check for microchip at the vet today).  We have 2 dogs already - boxers - so adding a third to the mix is NOT going to happen.  But we live in a breed discriminatory county to turning this sweet pit bull over to the authorities guarantees euthanization.  So he'll be in our garage until we find his owner.  Someone is missing this dog!!  It's too sweet and well trained NOT to be someone's loved pet!

Comment time - post up your favorite low prep, go-to, low cal dinners!!  I need inspiration!!

TTFN,
LauraLynne

Comments

Mr.s Gokey said…
I just signe dup my third 5k and I am super nervous. I get to about a half mile and I start to shut down. Any advice?
Lesia said…
So jealous of your energy and determination in running. Wish I could run.smile.
headbandlady said…
I can so relate to you about the first mile....it is like that with everyone I know. Such a mental game. I had a friend just run the SD marathon the first weekend in June....and when I tell her about how I want to give up the first mile....she agrees...and feels the same....so we just have to talk ourselves in to pushing on...it gets easier in mile 2 on.....one thing that has helped me....and I just started doing it recently....is walk the first 1/2 mile I can not believe the difference that has made....kind of like a warm up....but, it has helped improve my time also...weird I know...I read it somewhere....and adapted it to my running....and now...it does not seem so bad the first mile....keep running...it is good for the mind and soul!
Flabby McGee said…
bruchetta - I live on the stuff right now - with skim mozerella cheese. Yum. Poor dog! I hope you find the owner soon, kudos to you for taking care of it!

Yeah - the little stuff adds up FAST. I learned that the hard way :) At least you haven't totally fallen off the wagon!
LauraLynne said…
Googie -
My best advice (and what usually works for me) is to push myself 1 minute at a time - or to a particular goal. I tell myself "self, you WILL run for the next 60 seconds, we will re-negotiate after that..." and that sometimes does it.
other times, I have to literally throw myself forward and VERY sternly tell myself "SELF, you will NOT walk!!"
it's the mental barriers that are the hardest for me - I've pushed my body farther, I've run more, I know my body is more than capable - I'm NOT asking it to do the impossible. And that's important. I'm NOT telling my body to run a 4 minute mile. Because I'm certain THAT would kill me. But I am telling it to run the best it can. It's not easy. I don't know how to describe the conversations that I have with myself about running, eating healthy or otherwise.

I'm pretty sure that if I did it more accurately, I'd be typing this from the library at the mental ward.
LauraLynne said…
Flabby - got a receipe for that?!

Popular posts from this blog

Time to come clean - and start blogging again with NEWS!

I've been avoiding the blogging world - for a couple reasons.  My eating has been horrible.  Well, maybe not horrible but definately not brag-worthy or blog-worthy.  I've been embarassed at how much I've regressed back into old eating habits. The other reason is I've been keeping a secret but it's time to come clean.  I've been gaining weight - only a little - and with my doctor's full permission.  As of today, I'm 16weeks 4 days pregnant, and this one's here to stay!  I'm excited.  And nervous. And sick as a dog with morning sickness.  I've used all of the above as an excuse to jump off the wagon (and load it with junk food to drag around with me all day).  I've had chips and candy and sugar - and not in small quantities.  I now weight 205.  Up from 190.  But holding steady and fully aware of the changes I need to make - again. Mostly my problem is that I have morning sickness 24 hours a day.  It's like really bad mot...

8k Race report - the details!

As a "big girl" the first thing I look for is how many runners there are as big or bigger than me. It's just what I do. At a 5k, there are usually a number of women bigger than me and many my size. Today that wasn't the case. Apparently adding 3k eliminates a lot of plus size runners. I did not see anyone my size. My husband told me there were a few other big girls running - but I didn’t' see them. Talk about a head trip - I was really nervous! The announcer released my group and we're off! Less than a quarter mile in, I realized that I may not have thought this race all the way through. Let me just mention, I'm scared of heights. I used to be terrified of heights - now I'm just scared. I mostly do fine with them but bridges still can bring on a panic attack for me. The name of this race: Beat the Bridge. Um. Like I said, I may have overlooked part of the planning this race out. So less than a quarter mile from the start, there's a bridge - n...

coming out of my slump - and a new puppy!

I've been in a slump - blog silence on my end usually means just that.  I've been struggling to keep up my healthy eating and I haven't been working out.  My weight has stayed the same but that's NOT my goal in this journey.  I'm hanging out at 191 still - so close to 180's.  But I'm really mentally struggling.  It's been cold.  I've been exhausted.  I haven't felt 100% well.  I've got a million other excuses.  I've spent 42 years making excuses.  I'm a freaking Excuse Expert.  I'm signed up for a 5k on 12/12 - so I'd better get my butt in gear.  I'm contemplating a 1/2 marathon in April - I'd better get my butt in gear.  I've lost 49 pounds and have 41 more to go - I'd better get my butt in gear. If only it were as easy to DO as it were to say.  I've cheated on my abstinence foods - sugar AND candy.  Still no chips - as if there's solace in that.  But today's a new day and Day 1 again.  And to...