I was replying to a comment on my original post - and I had a small epiphany: The elimination has been hard. Harder than moderation. Going without vs. trying to moderate has been a lot harder for me. But I'm doing it. And I'm concentrating on one event at a time. It automatically breaks it down for me and I have daily successes. Grocery shopping - no chips or candy. Drive by the convinience store - don't stop. There are bittersweet chocolate chips in my cupboard for cookies (eventually) - they're all still there.....
I still have to have little pep talks to get through each moment of struggle. But it's getting easier. At least sometimes. There are some days where I really just want to bag it. Candy's on sale...chips are cheap (and SO yummy!). But then I remember my progress. And that I'm accountable. To you guys (thank you!) and to my husband (my biggest supporter!) and my kids (my biggest doubters).
*The epiphany*
Because this is such a struggle for me (as my husband sits across the desk from my with a fresh bag of tortilla chips!!), I think it's actually working. The fact that it's SUCH a draw for me and such a daily struggle tells me I'm on the right course. The fact that it's so hard (right now) is a major clue into what the issue is. And I really feel like this is sustainable. There's no candy and chips (and later refined sugar and artificial sweetner and then who knows) on the food pyramid, it's not required in a healthy diet.
That epiphany makes me feel like I'm on the right track. And, for once, and this is a biggie: The scale is NOT my focus. I'm certainly keeping an eye on it and you bet your booty that I'm dancing in the bathroom when it shows a loss - but the other morning it showed a FIVE pound gain overnight. And I shrugged and put the scale back where it came from. I was confident it was a fluke. And it didn't freak me out - I've been successful in avoiding the foods I've eliminated. And that feels awesome.
Back to enjoying my last hours of a long weekend!!
TTFN,
LauraLynne
I still have to have little pep talks to get through each moment of struggle. But it's getting easier. At least sometimes. There are some days where I really just want to bag it. Candy's on sale...chips are cheap (and SO yummy!). But then I remember my progress. And that I'm accountable. To you guys (thank you!) and to my husband (my biggest supporter!) and my kids (my biggest doubters).
*The epiphany*
Because this is such a struggle for me (as my husband sits across the desk from my with a fresh bag of tortilla chips!!), I think it's actually working. The fact that it's SUCH a draw for me and such a daily struggle tells me I'm on the right course. The fact that it's so hard (right now) is a major clue into what the issue is. And I really feel like this is sustainable. There's no candy and chips (and later refined sugar and artificial sweetner and then who knows) on the food pyramid, it's not required in a healthy diet.
That epiphany makes me feel like I'm on the right track. And, for once, and this is a biggie: The scale is NOT my focus. I'm certainly keeping an eye on it and you bet your booty that I'm dancing in the bathroom when it shows a loss - but the other morning it showed a FIVE pound gain overnight. And I shrugged and put the scale back where it came from. I was confident it was a fluke. And it didn't freak me out - I've been successful in avoiding the foods I've eliminated. And that feels awesome.
Back to enjoying my last hours of a long weekend!!
TTFN,
LauraLynne
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