Today I read a blog that really finally pushed me over the edge. In a good way. I NEED OA. I went to the meetings with my church group, got started, really had some good break throughs, but I can't do this on my own. I need to quit dinking around and find a meeting to go to. It won't be a quick fix, but I'm really struggling with the food addiction part on my own.
And recently I've been lecturing a friend about their husband's addiction. His addiction is gambling - and he's stooped to stealing from family it's that bad. And he goes to meetings but - as she tells me - they don't HAVE 12 steps there, it's "too complicated with all the religion stuff." So I've been preaching the 12 step program to her...hypocritical of me since I haven't followed through on my own meetings.
Today I find a meeting and by this time next week, I will attend a meeting.
I am powerless over sugar.
Last night after I blogged about day whatever without sugar, I thought I was safe - no sugar in the house. Then I saw the cinnamon toast crunch. ARGH. And I justified it by saying "it's only a teacup worth - that's not bad" And after that teacup was gone, there was the usual amount of guilt - it wasn't proportional as I thought it would be. Teacup of cereal, dump truck of guilt. Mathmatically illogical. But who says addiction is logical.
I need help. I can count on one hand how many times in my life I've asked for help. This one's a biggie though.
Meetings. 12 steps. Recovery.
Here's to hope *Raising my empty teacup in a toast*
TTFN,
LauraLynne
And recently I've been lecturing a friend about their husband's addiction. His addiction is gambling - and he's stooped to stealing from family it's that bad. And he goes to meetings but - as she tells me - they don't HAVE 12 steps there, it's "too complicated with all the religion stuff." So I've been preaching the 12 step program to her...hypocritical of me since I haven't followed through on my own meetings.
Today I find a meeting and by this time next week, I will attend a meeting.
I am powerless over sugar.
Last night after I blogged about day whatever without sugar, I thought I was safe - no sugar in the house. Then I saw the cinnamon toast crunch. ARGH. And I justified it by saying "it's only a teacup worth - that's not bad" And after that teacup was gone, there was the usual amount of guilt - it wasn't proportional as I thought it would be. Teacup of cereal, dump truck of guilt. Mathmatically illogical. But who says addiction is logical.
I need help. I can count on one hand how many times in my life I've asked for help. This one's a biggie though.
Meetings. 12 steps. Recovery.
Here's to hope *Raising my empty teacup in a toast*
TTFN,
LauraLynne
Comments
- Lisa
http://inweighovermyhead.blogspot.com/
This addiction is SO HARD... when you are addiction to drininking drugs and alcohol they say you can put the 'Tiger' in the cafe with Food/Sugar you put the 'Tiger' in the cage but have to take it out for a walk 3-4 times a day.. its hard! I know you can do it!
The Fit & Frugal Challenge
First of all, I can so feel you with the sugar, it is addictive. I start out doing well, and then I just get this craving that is overpowering.
I wish you good luck with finding a meeting that will work for you.
OA online - the between meetings meeting. It is exactly the same as any meeting you know, just online. No need to wait to find one - you can go any ol day you choose :)
Hope that helps.
Blue~