sore mouth means less desire to eat. Today I will stay within my limits and try to use my recouperating time to pre-make a few meals for myself. And go for a walk.
I haven't been as heavy as I am now (250) in almost 2 decades. I forgot how hard it is. Physically and mentally. And I'm spiraling lately. It's been so very hard. Everything has been hard. I've been struggling with my weight - the pure numbers - my clothes, my ability to do simple daily activities, my self loathing, my eating. Everything. I feel like this literally effects every single aspect of my life. And I HATE it. H.A.T.E. This weekend was especially brutal on me. I am a retired motorcycle racer and now I work for a track time organization and ride during their events. My race suit was custom made about 15 years ago. It still has lots of life left in it. But it was custom made for 200 pound me and doesn't even come close to fitting 250 pound me. So I finally caved and ordered another custom made suit. I send in all my measurements and waited. There were some hiccups and dela...
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